I'm still doing bad but at least i'm doing things. Today was... Okay. I dunno if tomorrow will be. I kind of don't want it to be so I can prove that i'm really not doing well- that it's not just my cyclical moods again. (Did you know there's a disorder that's just that? When your moods are cyclical like that but it's Not bipolar levels. Apparently it's called Cyclothymia. If i'd heard of it before I realized I have bpd, I might have thought that was it. Honestly it still might be but idc anymore about this shit. Getting my bpd semi-diagnosed really calmed my hypochondriac tendencies. I think smth about it was just the last missing puzzle piece I needed.)
Not the point though. I'm alright I guess. I had a few genuinely happy moments tho most of today was apathetic. Drastically prefer that to my previous moods.
I sketched out and am working on a new index for the site, one that's all mine, even if it has some limited leftover code. I am glad for it. A template was helpful but I want to start drifting away from that... Start really making this place my own. Even if it's "worse" in other's eyes, it'll be better because it'll be mine. Though the website IS officially completely unusable on mobile... Oh well. In 15 years when i'm good enough at coding to fix that I will, but this is a hobby, not a career, heh. Maybe after the index i'll redo a bunch of the rest of the site to be my own too... We'll see, I suppose.